please tell me how to mend this broken heart....

i really nid to mend my heart badly...

yes..im crashed badly n im in agony...

theres no words to describe n nothing to describe anymore..

i cud only see n let da tears flows down on my cheeks..

i shud have prepared myself 4 this..

but i let myself get comfortable with wat i have...

i tot i cud handle this..

but every single time i face this matter..

i cant help myself..

i noe im making this hard 4 that person..

but sorry dear..its really hard 4 me...

i keep blaming myself 4 this n of coz i keep blaming u n that new person...

plzz dear god..help me..

i dun wanna b a friend that crying over my own friend happiness...

my dear is happy rite now..y cant i join that happiness s well

i wanna b happy too...y is that so impossible rite now???

shall i dissappear n return wen im ready or shall i stay??

p/s: dear..if u read this post..plzz dun judge me..this is my feeling..honestly..im trying my very best to accept da fact but 4 this time being i lose to my own feelings...all those words that come from ur heart n mouth used to be 4 me..but now..its hers...tell her how lucky she is to have u..u r such a wonderful person i've ever known..but dun u ever worry coz i'll be rite here waiting n b here 4 u...u noe where to find me...i'll b waiting...